Everyday Living: Beautiful!! And blessed by God!!

Today is a beautiful day outside!! I have all the doors and widows open. I am not able to go outside and sit due to back pain today. I started to get depressed thinking about how I can't do the things I use to do (I am only 33years old) like going bowling, playing pool, going to the gun range to shoot, and going for long nature walks. I use to love to scrapbook, put puzzles together, and draw; but now those are limited also because they cause me to hurt.

   It would be so easy to just give in and complain all the time, but what good would that do. For example, last night I hurt just from broiling steak and cooking eggs for dinner. So my attitude was horrible and I didn't eat dinner which ruined dinner for my husband and my mother as well. The only thing complaining did was make things worse. I finally told my husband why I had a rotten attitude which was due to hurting, but really that's just an excuse. As a Christian I am suppose to take my difficulties and make the best of them (I didn't do that last night). God allows us to go through things for reasons, we may not know what they are but He knows. I apologized to my husband and mom last night for the way I acted. Being in pain like that is no fun, but I NEED to remember that there are people out there who have it worse than I do. Yes, I hurt and need to use a cane or wheelchair at times, but at least I can walk around the house a little bit where as others out there can't even do that.

   When I am in the here and now situations, I don't always see things right. I should always look for the positives in any given situation. I need to work on that, as a Christian and as a better person. Today I am feeling horrible about how I acted last night, which is usually the case in these situations. But I can't do anything to change it except to change how I deal with it in the future. God will get me through this, I just need to work on excepting and dealing with it. Take some time to look at the good things in my life.........I am married to a wonderful Christian man (6 months to the date today!) who has a fantastic Christian family. I have this wonderful friend who has a beautiful family and they worship God also. In fact Sam is there to lift me up in spirits no matter how far apart we are. My mother lives with us, and does the things around the house I can't do. We go to a good church. I have fur critters that love me in their own way.

   One day, hopefully soon I will have back surgery and that will help me. Until then I just need to rely on God to get me through this and keep a better attitude.   I am truly blessed!!